A Fine Mess

Tori Amos - Taxi Ride

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 23:25:11 -0400

Lily is dancing
on the table
We’ve all been
Pushed
Too far
I guess on days
like this
you know who your
friends are
Just another Dead Fag
to you that’s all
Just another Light missing
on a long taxi ride
taxi ride

And I’m down to
Your last cigarette and
this “We are one” crap
as you’re invading
This thing you call
Love - she smiles
way too much but
I’m glad you’re
on my side, sure
I’m glad you’re on
my side still

You think you deserve
a trust fund
Just because you
Want one
Sure you talk the talk
when you need to
I fear
the whole world is
starting to
Believe you
Just another Dead Fag
to you that’s all
Just another Light missing
in a long taxi line
taxi line

And I”m down to
Your last cigarette and
this “We are one” crap
as you’re invading
This thing you call
Love - she smiles
way too much but
I’m glad you’re
on my side, sure
I’m glad you’re on
my side still

Lily is dancing
on the
table
We’ve all been pushed
Too far today
Even a glamorous
Bitch can be in
need
this is where you know
the Honey
from the
Killer Bees
I’m glad you’re on
my side
sure
I’m glad you’re on
my side
sure
I’m glad you’re on
my side still

Got a long taxi ride
Got a long taxi ride

—-just love this song that’s all.. Can really define how I feel right now.

Everyone will say goodbye one way or another. No one can really be there for us through and through...

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 20:56:00 -0400

Everyone will say goodbye one way or another. No one can really be there for us through and through even though they say they will. And so, even if people leave us or we leave them to go somewhere else, we just have to make sure that we have stored up lots of good memories with people who matter to us. Its bitter-sweet but people will move on and you will too.

Lesson learned.

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 02:18:41 -0400

I’ve done a lot of things I regret these past few weeks. But nothing beats this:

I should’ve hugged my dad when he tried to hug me in the cab as we we’re taking him to the hospital. He tried twice to hug me. That’s I guess the biggest regret I’ll ever have in my life. He’s gone now. I should’ve hugged him. I didn’t know that it will be the last effort he’ll ever do to be close to me.

I miss him. I try to act normal but my life will never be normal again. Nothin will ever be the same. I am without a dad already. I will never be whole again. :(

misunderstood

Tue, 22 May 2012 20:25:48 -0400

What the hell is wrong with these fellows?! Jeeezzzzzz!! And so, like with us nurses, we talk about this damn doctors like madmen, like they talk about us. I never wanted to call you in the first place! And I will never call you if I don’t have to! What the hell is wrong with you? I call for the patients, for their best interest and you talk to me like it was my intention to make fun of you. You shouldn’t have worked if you don’t wanna be called for at 10 in the evening for referrals!

#damnlazydoctors

nuff said..

Tue, 22 May 2012 20:13:27 -0400

nuff said..

She’s really cute.. she’s very nice again today. I love nice people.. especially when...

Fri, 18 May 2012 12:57:59 -0400

She’s really cute.. she’s very nice again today. I love nice people.. especially when they’re nice, and cute at the same time.. :D

Photo

Thu, 17 May 2012 20:59:52 -0400

Photo

Thu, 17 May 2012 20:58:05 -0400

ilovehotcoffee: but for a booty call.. “Storage room in 5...

Thu, 17 May 2012 20:57:28 -0400

ilovehotcoffee:

but for a booty call.. “Storage room in 5 minutes.” jk

Photo

Thu, 17 May 2012 20:57:06 -0400

How much does it hurt?

Tue, 15 May 2012 21:08:03 -0400

How much does it hurt?

my life right now..

Tue, 15 May 2012 20:17:11 -0400

So far, so good..

Not so many patients lately.. Not so tired at work. My fellow nurses are quite okay. I like some of them but I’m not trying to be close to them whatsoever. I just lying low. Not too close, not too distant.

My relationship with my gf.. well, hmm we’re still together.. She asked me to hold on and I am.. holding on, I mean. I guess we’ll see how long we can both hold on. We’re not like what we used to be.. its sad, but you know, I guess these things do happen.

The biggest problem I’m facing right now is the lack of sleep. I am not usually like this. I used to sleep.. a lot. But now.. I need to take something so I can sleep..which is not a good thing, I know.

utterly bored

Sun, 13 May 2012 20:22:00 -0400

I need a good book to ponder upon. Seriously. I love to read but I’m quite picky when it comes to books. You can’t expect me to finish reading one if its not interesting in the first place. I’ll read the first chapter, then if its not interesting, I can’t force myself to finish it.

I’ll go to the mall today and look for another book.. hopefully, I can find a good one today.

nurse-on-duty: YES!

Sat, 12 May 2012 19:53:42 -0400

nurse-on-duty:

YES!

What I wanna do..

Sat, 12 May 2012 19:26:57 -0400

I wanted to travel.. with someone I can be myself with. Someone who will allow me to just be me. If I cannot find such a person, then I’d rather travel alone instead.
I want to have my own car or SUV, I’ll be driving alone sometimes and sing my heart out in there or sometimes I’d just go driving even when I have no specific place to go to. I’d also wanna drive someone to where ever they wanna go. It’d be fun! It’s just so nice thinking about it. Driving. Because you can control a car.. unlike life where you just go where it takes you to.
I wanna live alone. Claim my independence. I know it will be a disaster but I can only do it when I was forced to…

There’s a lot of things on my mind, you have no idea. I am sad.. so sad. I don’t know...

Sat, 05 May 2012 08:40:00 -0400

There’s a lot of things on my mind, you have no idea. I am sad.. so sad. I don’t know why but little things depresses me.

We have this nursing aide in our hospital and her daughter who just passed the nurses licensure exam, probably her only hope for a good future is now in the ICU. It is sad. I feel sorry for them. How can this happen? It’s depressing. Ate, the nursing aide has been good to me when we we’re working together.

Life is sad right now. I don’t like it in my new ward. In fact, I don’t wanna be at any ward anymore. I don’t know what’s happening to me but I feel sad right now. My gf and I celebrated our monthsary today. I was supposed to be happy and I tried to be happy but my mind is somewhere else. I am thinking a lot about how sad life is right now. I am thinking of our life together, my gf and I. She’s moving out tomorrow and it depresses me. But when I think about it, even if she’s here, I feel like she’s somewhere else. Maybe both of us are just preoccupied with things. Maybe. But still, its sad. You have no idea how sad I am right now.

She made me this powerpoint message with pictures and all. Hmm.. it was her anniversary message to...

Thu, 03 May 2012 20:52:32 -0400

She made me this powerpoint message with pictures and all. Hmm.. it was her anniversary message to me and it was sweet. Very sweet in fact I cried when she first showed it to me. It was love and it was real.

Right now, she can’t even force herself to be sweet again to me. Its very sad. Right now I think it was all a lie. What’s in the message is too good to be true. How could anyone love me like that? NO one can! I was fooled enough to believe that she really loved me. :(

First day at this ward

Thu, 03 May 2012 12:57:03 -0400

I just got home after my first day at this ward. We had 4 admissions and 1 transfer from the recovery room. You would think that I had fun at work today, but I didn’t. As I rode a jeepney going home, I felt really sad. Depressed even. I am tired. I just don’t want anything anymore. I am not looking forward to work tomorrow. I am not looking forward to going abroad someday. I’m just tired of everything. I want everything to end. I want my life to end. I am tired.

I’m depressed. I miss my wife so much. I want to hug her tight and when I do, I won’t let go of her. :’( I’m just so sad, I’m sorry.

I’m still not feeling well. I still have this bad cough. Damn I feel so guilty that I was on...

Tue, 01 May 2012 19:10:47 -0400

I’m still not feeling well. I still have this bad cough. Damn I feel so guilty that I was on sick leave yesterday on my first day back at the ward. But what can I do? I’m still sick. :( I dunno if the employee’s physician will give me fit to work certificate tomorrow.

GLEE - DANCE WITH SOMEBODY I love the part where they sang...

Tue, 01 May 2012 08:30:00 -0400

GLEE - DANCE WITH SOMEBODY

I love the part where they sang “to hold me in her arms, I need a woman who takes a chance on a love that burns hot enough to last” ahhh.. Glee continues to amaze me everytime.